From NHS to Naturally Healthier Solutions

Recently, it feels like it’s been one thing after another, and my health has been brought into question on a couple of occasions, with the potential of it being quite serious.

I’ve been feeling very down, and wanting to reach out to someone to make me feel better. But something in me didn’t want to do this. So, I decided to be of service to myself.

I began cleaning my living space (which was chaotic, dusty and in need of a good clean.), and when i was doing it, I imagined that I was a seperate person and that I wanted to make sure that my mental health was tip top whilst I was cleaning.. I imagined that I was a cleaner for me, and that I wanted to make my mental health on top form by doing a fantastic job. I’ve never done this before, normally living in a state of dissaray and then paying a cleaner to come and make it nice for me. I’ve never decided to be of service for me in this way. And my god, it really worked!!

I began appreciating what i was doing for myself. I began feeling uplifted and it was a joy to clean. I didn’t need someone to make me feel better – I was of service to myself.

And now i have a lovely living space.

For years, I’ve not held my own mental health in high regard like this, whilst i want to make things better, there was still had some effect of the years of self neglect that manifested in beating up on myself, not paying bills, reaching out to others.

I just didn’t feel like I was worth it.. after all those years of being brought down by others, it seems like I was a sponge – I soaked up their toxicity to a point where I i was carrying it around without even realising. I forgot about me, and my soul was crying out – hurt, wounded, needing love. For such a long time, It seemed programmed into my software of how i lived.

But tonight that changed and I wanted the best for myself.

This is only a small post, but i thought it was worth sharing.

Its a little win, one worth mentioning 🙂